On Becoming Maria, The Blog is Two Years Old!

For a moment there I was worried. I wondered if the blog was falling into a pattern of frequent milestone postings. I looked at the essay below and I wondered. And then I said, so fuckin what? Cut it out, Maria. Cuz this is what you do, pouring your guts out on the page and…

Nine Years Sober Today!

Today I am nine years sober. I am very proud of this because walking away from alcohol was NOT easy. There was a lot of shame …. I mean a really lot of shame.  (Yeah yeah, I know, bad grammar. But I’m tired, okay. It’s been a super busy week. My sober birthday is almost…

The Not Easy Shit

Just so we’re clear, this shit ain’t easy. And when I say this shit, I mean writing along the  eclectic levels on which I express. I’m like an amoeba, shrinking, expanding, morphing— showing up in different shapes from moment to moment and one day to the next. I’m not doing it on purpose …. not…

When I Win, You Win

By the time I realized where this blog was taking me, it was too late to turn back. I don’t say that as an admission of regret, rather I say it to record the truth. Because the truth also is, if I could have seen the future of my unfolding here, the unpacking of my…